Loneliness

For so many years I've been searching, simply to find the perfect soul, and yet still i fail. It came to the point when i felt hopeless. I thought that i would never see the day when id find true happiness until the early summer. Twas the season of brightness for the heart whose never set foot in the warmth of the light. You smiled at me, and as though it seemed the days my heart has been imprisoned in the depths of oblivion, all vanished away in an instant. My pale heart started to live again, pumped up by your passion and your energy. I was filled with joy and the emotions kept pouring out uncontrollably. You have brought out the beast that has rested in its deepest sleep for so long, and yet with just a single touch you tamed it. How could i resist when the chemistry was filling the air? How could i say no to those beautiful eyes you use to stare? That with each and everyday i am finding it hard to stay apart from you. You have slowly become the temptation that i would not want...

How do you know the depths of your existence?is it when you think you have achieved everything you desired?or is it when you have nothing yet you're truly content with what's in front of you...Is it when you are surrounded by the most powerful and influential people in society?Or rather be in the company of the most rugged yet humble by-standers in the municipality? That is a question that i have wanted to find answers for so long and still i fail...for it has long been a contradiction in life...How can we measure the amount of value that we have in our life?So far i did try to test if my life did have such essence as they say...but somehow it just wont appear to me...so far I've been living like a fool in a world full of lies...not knowing which is even true...if there was any...i felt all alone and miserable, so how can i say that my life was even worth anything?when from the very beginning it wasn't even valued by anyone...not even the closest people i know...

Living life with full of pain and agony is not what it will always seem. Sometimes we tend to see a lot and we get used to it that we do not often see the changes that has been going around in our lives. Sometimes all it takes is a little tap in the shoulder to finally realize that we are not alone anymore. I have been through the depths of hell in my life, if ever there was such a place, but as it is living my life was somewhat the kind that defines being in hell. I used to breathe in pain, laugh with agony and dance with blissful misery. These all hidden under a brilliant and joyous face. A mask that hides true uncertainty, emotions that run even deeper than any man nor woman could ever know. I have endured so many treacherous days that my body becomes numb and my heart does not even recognize itself anymore. I have always hidden behind a mask, a very pretty face that almost no one could resist. That laugh that i used, together with that tender face, the inevitable smile that makes p...