Days of A Wandering Heart...

For so many years I've been searching, simply to find the perfect soul, and yet still i fail. It came to the point when i felt hopeless. I thought that i would never see the day when id find true happiness until the early summer. Twas the season of brightness for the heart whose never set foot in the warmth of the light. You smiled at me, and as though it seemed the days my heart has been imprisoned in the depths of oblivion, all vanished away in an instant. My pale heart started to live again, pumped up by your passion and your energy. I was filled with joy and the emotions kept pouring out uncontrollably. You have brought out the beast that has rested in its deepest sleep for so long, and yet with just a single touch you tamed it. How could i resist when the chemistry was filling the air? How could i say no to those beautiful eyes you use to stare? That with each and everyday i am finding it hard to stay apart from you. You have slowly become the temptation that i would not want to refuse. The obsession of both mind and body. The addiction which no drug can ever compare. Not even a single cell in my body can muster up the strength to fight the tightness of your embrace. What am i to do? when in fact i am at my weakest when you're beside me, and no matter how much i try to hide, still my feelings just wont let me be. All that i can do now is to surrender, cause i know that you have the power over me that no other can ever behold. Yet deep inside, at the very farthest corner of my heart, still i fear that somehow everything just might fall apart. I fear that one day you might vanish and leave me all alone. With everyday i keep wishing from the bottom of my heart, that you will forever stay although i know that nothing can stay the same, not even in a lifetime. Not the nearness nor the passion that we both share can stand the harshness of time. Even as i lay my head on your shoulder, my eyes cannot help but drop tears of happiness with a slight touch of sadness,for in time i know that you would someday be far away from me. As of now i am very grateful to have you for you have given me the very best days of my life, and i thank you for always being there whenever i needed you. You have filled the part of my heart that used to be full of hatred and contempt, and replaced it with pure and unconditional love. You showed me the path to freedom and you guided me all throughout.